Insecure ASS!!!!

People tell the truth when they are mad, drunk and/or madly drunk. In have asked God to walk with me during this process and to reveal to me those that are for me and those that don't mean me any good. Well Lord, I surely didn't know you was going to do it this fast. I have had more guys disappear, some I am happy they are gone and others I wish could have stay around for a while. However, it is always disappointing when the one you really want isn't ready, willing, or able to give you what you want but it is even more disheartening when they say very mean things to you in a heated argument. "I AM TIRED OF YOUR FUCKING INSECURE ASS, IT ISN'T ABOUT YOU..." I pretty much forgot whatever else he said but those words struck me in my chest like a 4x4 piece of plywood. Kind Sir, did you just call me insecure, then he started the back tracking, but the damage was done and I didn't care about anything else he had to say. I could be the best women in the world the minute you said I was insecure I knew that was my pink slip to leave this situationship. How stupid of me to believe that I was going to wait him out, make him love me. The last time I did that bullshit I got tired and left and now he is dating at 28 year old girl (who happens to be freaking beautiful)

"And then I realized twenty-something girls are just fabulous until you see one with the man who broke your heart." - Carrie Bradshaw


His words hit my core and then I start to think maybe I was insecure. However, instead of shaming myself because of my insecurities, I decided to learn them, own them, then eliminate them. In the art war in order to defeat your enemy you have to understand your enemy, conquer your enemy and ultimately destroy your enemy, the same holds true for your insecurities.

Day 3 challenge:

Working on me
So all day yesterday, I did things to make myself feel better. Your girl looks like a million bucks. But that is only outer. I am going to learn how to control my inner by silencing all negativity and learning that these insecurities that I have fostered are only untruths that have attached themselves to me because of fail past relationships. No one should be able to make you feel insecure. You have to know your worth, walk in your truth and slay in bish that tries to get in the way of your fabulous self. So watch out, I am taking out any demons in my range!