Living on a Prayer

"ohhh, we've got to hold on, ready or not
you live for the fight when it's all you've got.
woah, we're half way there
woah, livin on a prayer
take my hand, we'll make it I swear
Woah, livin on a prayer" Bon Jovi

If you did not sing this song while reading the lyrics please close this blog go straight to youtube and play Bon Jovi, livin on prayer and internalize this song. Thanks, Management! (extra credit, I added the video to this blog, see I made your life easier)

All my real 70's and 80's babies stand up and if your bones feel like mine sit down. I am tired. No one (well I am lying everyone told me) when I hit 30 my bones were going to start hurting. As soon as I hit 30 and a day my damn knees started hurting. Geesh. Nevertheless, I have been gone all weekend and yesterday was definitely a treat to my growth, but I will not get into that until day 30 so hold your tits my dears. So for the past 3 or more days I have been living on prayer, mainly because I decided, thanks to my kick ass friend Joelise, I am going to become Cat woman (Dark Knight Rises) and ride a kick ass motorcycle and wear tight leather outfits. I thought it was going to be a cake walk, I hop on a motorcyle and BAM i am rider. NOOOO, I wasn't ready. I pretty much almost died my first day on the bike (really prayer works). I let the clutch go and then accidently hit the throttle (gas) and BAM I was on the concrete me and the night hawk (bike)! Yep, I sucked at riding the motorcyle, but what I did learn is that the more I did it the better I got. The more I did it the more I conquered my fear. I fell off that bike but damn it was not going to let that defeat me, I got right back on and I rode again. I shook that shit off and chased my Cat woman dreams.

Needless to say, I still failed the motorcyle test, ( I couldn't stop fast enough, whatever) but I learned a valuable lesson, when life knocks you down get back up. We all hear this saying and we all say it but when it really happens we tend to stay down for a while and lay in our sorrows. We don't have time for that. In love you will be knock down, beat up (sometimes literally), and let down but we are born fighters, survivors and adaptors. We are able to overcome anything that is the wonderful part of the human brain. However, we ( well at least I do) serve a power more powerful than human will, that's GOD. Everyday, we live on a prayer. We pray we work, we work we pray. But have you really processed how prayer has really changed your life. I swear every year I pray for a great man (I do, and you will not judge me) but was I specific in my prayers. I have met some great men, that I prayed for but they were not great for me. So yes my prayer was answered but not the way I wanted it. I have prayed for more money, I got it but I work like 25 jobs, no seriously I work like 25 jobs. I am learning that while I have a strong human will, I need to improve my prayer life. When you fall off and get back on add prayer to that. Thank the heavens you fell because if I had never fallen I wouldn't be able to learn first hand and never make that mistake again. Yes, we are suppose to learn from other mistakes but sometimes we have to make our own to grow into the person we are destined to become. I am learning to thank God for every failed relationship because I know I am a step closer to finding the one but I also pray that  Lord while I am in this interim work on me, make me the woman my future husband is praying for right now, and mold him into the man I am specifically praying for and in the meantime continously bless my future husband. AMEN!

Challenge 4, 5, 6, and 7

Pray
Until
Something
Happens

Pray, learn and grow. I am praying for all my readers, I am praying for my future husband and kids. I am praying to be a kick ass biker chick (who rides safely). I am praying for peace and understanding. I am praying for wisdom as I continue with this challenge. I am praying that my words not only help myself but others. I am praying for LIFE, I speak LIFE  AND LOVE onto you all . I challenege you all as well as myself to pray each day (not that sorry prayer we been saying since we were kids) I mean a meaningful prayer each day. I am learning to pray selflessly and put others before myself. In order to free myself from baggage and negativity, I need to enhance my prayer life, and the next time I fall down and get back on realize prayer kept me and will continue to keep me until my last breath. .

Hey friends, I love you and I am praying for your happiness, whatever that means to you.

Future husband, I pray for you, I pray for us and I pray for this journey. If my intution is correct you are traveling down the same path and I promise I will meet you at the finish line and together we will kneel before God and pray together.

"We've got to hold on to what we've got
'Cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - we'll give it a shot
Whooah, we're half way there
Livin' on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it - I swear
Livin' on a prayer "